I find myself at a turning point in my life. I just recently lost my job because the woman I took care of moved to a nursing home. Doing that same kind of work is OK but I feel myself gravitating to doing something else.
What that something else is…I have no idea! I feel like the whole world has been open up to me. When I think of the jobs I have had over the past 30 years when I was in the food, I can’t believe how many of them I settled on. I was so limited by my physical body. I could only do certain things. Some jobs I took were very physically difficult for me (other people…probably not so much). I suffered through each and every shift!
One odd job I took was a level supervisor in an area stadium during pro football games. I was on my feet walking all around this huge stadium for about 12 hours. I was the crabbiest supervisor in the entire place because I was so physically uncomfortable that it made me extremely irritable.
Let’s not forget about the sweating! I was always so hot and uncomfortable. Sometimes I would hide out in the beer coolers just to cool off! I sweat so bad that I looked like a drowned rat by the time I got off of work!
I can’t quite believe right now the limits that I had made for myself in my ability to earn a living. The thought of my inability to physically handle so many jobs was downright frightening!
Now that I have to find another job, I am just now realizing that I can do just about any job (within reason) and I do not feel that I have that many physical limitations anymore. I don’t get hot anymore or even sweat, for that matter. Even though I am 55 (at least for another week), I have never in my life felt that job wise…I am open for anything!
It isn’t easy for me to wrap my head around this. In the past, I always had to worry about being able to physically perform for anything I wanted or had the chance to do. I still think that way and have to restructure my thinking accordingly!
The amazing thing about being in a right size body is that you feel like your limitations have been lifted! Why did I live so long with so many limitations? How many opportunities have come my way that I had to pass up because I was physically unable? All because I couldn’t control my food! All because I didn’t know how to control my food or what was wrong with me!
In finding a solution to my problem, I found my real life! I found the journey that GOD always had intended for me! Thank you God for this miracle! I am going to follow God’s lead on this one!